I hate those dreams

They always come out of no where. Makes no sense to be having these dreams years later.

Stayed up late prepping wine braised ox tail to slow cook for 8 hours while I’m at work tomorrow… better taste amazing.  #crockpot #firsttime #oxtail #myhousebetternotburndown

Stayed up late prepping wine braised ox tail to slow cook for 8 hours while I’m at work tomorrow… better taste amazing. #crockpot #firsttime #oxtail #myhousebetternotburndown

I wish I had a photographic memory, sometimes before I sleep I think about all the moments that will only happen once and all the times that will never be the same again because it’s no longer the beginning and it hasn’t been in a long time,  no longer are we the couple that makes out during a movie instead of actually watching it,  or the shy boy and girl that are still getting to know each other and amazed at every thing we find out about each other.  I wish I wrote all those moments down,  captured them in some way to help jog my memory and to remind me that these things actually happened.  But I was too busy enjoying those moments, bathing in those feelings. And even now when I promise myself to write often, I’ve failed still. Who knows how long I’ll have to write something about?

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2014

Is going to be a life changing year.

Had an hour long conversation with my dad just now. In the year hes suppose to be retiring hes going to take another leap at a career to make life better for our family. I wish my brother could do more. I wish I could do more.

Can’t be the little girl that cries when something happens within the family anymore,  have to be the woman that helps keep the boat afloat.

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Every time I’m sick

I realize again that no one will take care of you besides your family. That when you live on your own, you are on your own. I want someone that will be beside me in sickness and in health. 

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Happy birthday to my dad!

Happy birthday to my dad!

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AFTERS milky bun cookie monster ice cream by myself because im feeling down #bleh

AFTERS milky bun cookie monster ice cream by myself because im feeling down #bleh

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His and hers bikes. First bike ride to the gym together.  First bike ride anywhere for me!! Ahhh lol #gym #biking #bf

His and hers bikes. First bike ride to the gym together. First bike ride anywhere for me!! Ahhh lol #gym #biking #bf

Reconnect with Old Friends

I’m going to make a commitment to reconnecting with old friends. At least one person a week. I want to make a conscious effort to see what they’re up to, chat with them, maybe get dinner or hang out in some way. My circle has gotten too small. I cling to what/who I’m comfortable with too much! I see the same people every weekend.. which isn’t a bad thing but it’s not the best thing for a young person. I had a lot of people I was really close to before, we’ve grown apart for many different reasons, some of it was because of time and distance, some of it for more difficult/hurtful reasons. I’ll save the harder ones for last I guess, but I really should reconnect with old friends.

That being said, I should also try to connect with acquaintances, people that I’ve hung out with a few times but never really got close to. I’ve been trying with a few people, it’s a little bit awkward but if they put out the effort to come hang out with me then it’s worth it to keep going!! 

A little bit at a time, at least one person a week!

Here's The Best Advice From A Single Guy Who Spent A Year Interviewing Couples ⇢

"Don’t be afraid to be the one who loves the most"

I felt my heart lighten a bit when I got to this part. I got to say I really liked this article. It gives me encouragement and support in the way I go about loving someone.

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